Apparently, having boba at night was a bad idea. Go figure. There are so many thoughts on my mind right now, I can't settle myself down to sleep. Doesn't help that I'm hungry, either.
I decided to go back to those oh-so-naive resolutions I made at the beginning of 2008 and reflected somewhat happily, somewhat sadly upon them.
1. My friends
Definitely.
2. Lose that freshman weight gain :(
Somehow, I did. Apparently I've gotten skinnier without actually minding to it; it actually scares me. Maybe it's walking up and down the hill to North and South Campus multiple times a day...
3. Start earning an income, so I can keep up my photography
Damn.
4. Learn guitar
Again, fail.
5. Stop spending lumps of money
SIGH.
6. Make more friends at UCLA and make new ones
What? Make more friends and make new ones? I'm not sure what I meant. But definitely, made many, MANY new ones. :)
7. Study harder
Wow, I must've been high.
8. Have FUN
Hell yeah. :)
I'll consider doing resolutions for 2009, but I should probably print them out and staple them to my forehead or something. I didn't even remember making resolutions for this year until tonight. Sad.
Freak, I'm hungry. I also realized how alien a place Michael's Arts & Crafts is for me. I shall come by more...
Guiltily, Britney Spears' "Circus" is looping in my head. :\
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Wednesday, December 31, 2008
A year later...
Labels: 2008, britney spears, new year, resolutions
Posted by Andrew at 3:21 AM 2 comments
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
I have big shoes to fill
Bring it. The challenge begins now. It's time to outdo myself.
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Labels: bring it on, rising to the challenge
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Sunday, December 28, 2008
The Pursuit of Happyness
There are so many thoughts swirling in my head tonight, I've lost track of everything I want to think about. It's kind of annoying when you can't even describe all the things that are bothering you.
I was going to bed with a little bit of frustrations left over when I realized I no longer believed in myself. Well, what I mean is, I don't fully believe in what I used to anymore. I'm happy as long as my friends are happy -- that used to be my mantra, a bit of the old nice-guy mentality. I realized tonight... I wasn't. I felt really guilty and ashamed of myself when I did, but I couldn't deny it. Selfishness is one word for it, I suppose.
I can't yet make the separation. There's a big part of me which still, genuinely, lives by that extension. Part of me now wants more. I constantly worry that I demand too much of others, that maybe I'm just being unreasonable and greedy. There are those, of course, who reassure me and tell me that I have every right to want a little more, but in the end, I haven't convinced myself.
I wish I could just step aside and live in my own vein. It's just not... me. I'll just care to my own death, no matter how I try to fight it. I'm not a quitter, but I just care too damn much about you.
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Labels: agonizing dilemma, caring, selfishness
Posted by Andrew at 3:47 AM 1 comments
I swear I'm going to get an ulcer.
Sometimes, I just give up. I just don't know what to do anymore. You can't push any more otherwise you're the straight edge, but through and through, you really, really care about them.
At least I'll be ready to be a dad?
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Saturday, December 27, 2008
Madness
I've been rather obsessed with clothing shopping this Christmas season. It's really, really bad for my bank account, especially with January and the end of pledging coming around. I'm rather intent on changing my wardrobe though, so my subconscious is releasing all the long-built "thrifty Asian" barriers my parents built in me.
On the other hand, I have more colors! I think my Big has been rubbing off on me, because I bought my first orange shirt today. The last orange shirt I wore was in eighth grade, and that was one my mom had bought me from Target (it was probably on sale).
I'm looking for a good, solid purple shirt/polo. I shall keep scouring the internet/the malls for one. :)
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Tuesday, December 16, 2008
"This is the beginning of a beautiful friendship."
I suppose it was only natural to have some doubts before. I'm so much more used to approaching a friendship and judging its closeness on a certain scale; I almost forgot how to see otherwise. But I think another milestone of my life has been reached, where unexplainable feelings are questioned and examined, but not shunned; rather, embracing them with the patience and understanding necessary gives birth to something wholly new and surprisingly immersive.
Almost two months ago, I had to stop and reexamine myself. Keeping within my comfort zone made me doubt venturing into something less certain and more unpredictable--the collision kept me up. But in the end, after countless mind turnings and friendly advice, I kept in line with my goal for this year: breaking out of my norm. It was a bit terrifying. I knew beforehand why I had made such a decision, and I wondered if I had been too optimistic--perhaps I believed too much in myself.
For the longest time, I didn't see what I wanted to see. I occasionally had my disappointments, but I never regretted my decision. And surprisingly, despite my usually doubtful nature, I never believed I had been overly optimistic. Little by little, I was convinced, we could find a little more.
Perhaps the best moment of my winter break happened at the very beginning. Somehow, it was so much easier. So much more open. So much less uncertain. I knew that all my concerns could be forgotten.
I love you, Big.
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Labels: breaking out of the norm, finding optimism, friendship
Posted by Andrew at 3:20 AM 1 comments
Monday, December 8, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Sick during Thanksgiving... again.
I've somehow managed to get myself sick during Thanksgiving long weekend for the second year in a row. Oy. I've got all the stores' Black Friday ads on my desk but I don't really feel like camping out in my condition. Plus, they don't really have anything I desperately want.
Sometime this weekend, I've got to whittle down my shopping list. I've got even less money than I did last year...
I was never really close to my family, but having the first Thanksgiving without my parents here, the day feels really empty and lonely. Driving through town only made the desolateness more pronounced. I hope I'll see some friends soon.
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Labels: black friday, lonely, thanksgiving
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Monday, October 27, 2008
What now?
When you find yourself liking someone so unlike you, it's so difficult to acknowledge yourself as someone she'd be remotely interested in. She's so different, so unique that you have a hard time describing her. Somehow, I can't shake her from my mind. Every time I try to move on, believing I can accept the reality of our situation, something happens to shake me up again.
It hurts so badly when you want to help a friend, but you have no idea how.
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Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Descending into madness
So apparently, I've once again had to swallow my words and relive the unheeded warning of being careful of what I wish for. I made a promise to myself to be more social and get more involved this year, and I've really got it down. The only problem now is, I've got way too much stuff to do. I come back to my room every night so tired and exhausted, and I don't know when I'm going to have time to sit down and study, find a good job, or just reconnect with old friends.
It's overwhelming. Most of the things preoccupying my time are making me happy, so at least it's not wasted. Still, I'd like some time to just sit down and relax, (maybe) study, or just sleep away a few lazy hours. I must be insane.
On the other hand, APhiO has given me some of the most awesome friends ever, and I don't want to imagine how boring my life would be without them. Thanks guys, especially those with acronym-ic names, collectible gaming platforms, and tendencies to omit first names. :)
On a separate note, I need to stop going after girls I don't have much in common with/have any remote chance with. Awkward central is the bane of humanity.
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Labels: awesome new friends, awkward, exhaustion, occupied, tiring week
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Saturday, October 4, 2008
Anyone watch the VP Debate?
Sarah Palin actually sounded better than everyone expected. That being said, everyone expected her to completely make a fool of herself, so I guess congrats to her for not royally screwing up.
What bothers me are the final impressions from the debate. Palin (and Fox News) talks so much about all the unfair media coverage, all that horrendous sexism that is supposedly biased against her. But in truth, she's dancing that dance all the time.
Think about it. If Sarah Palin were, say, John Palin, the reactions at the end of the debate from the media would've been incredibly harsh. She did not answer most of the questions, skirted back to reciting memorized lines from McCain's speeches, and hid behind her only area of expertise, energy policy. She made up false facts to back important points, and she tried to play up her folksy small-town image by using such phrases as "Doggone it!" and "Say it ain't so, Joe!" Is this what we need in the White House? As a common, middle class suburbanite, I couldn't seem to fit into this niche she so desperately tried to portray herself as a peer. It's not her language that bothers me; after all, that would be unfair for me to introduce my prejudice into my voting habits, right? What bothers me is her complete lack of sound, educated logic.
I mean, come on, I'm only an 18 year old minority college student. Yet somehow, I possess more knowledge about foreign policy than a VP candidate. I know I have to answer questions in a debate when I'm asked; I may have only been in Speech & Debate for one year, but I know complete bullshit only gets you so far.
Joe Biden. He's not the same breath of fresh air that Barack Obama is. He doesn't exactly inspire me to believe in change. But hell, he knows his stuff, and he knows it well. If the whole country descended into chaos tomorrow, I would trust his judgment to lead us. At the debate, he answered most of his questions, he was concise and clear, he brought solid evidence to the table to support his arguments, and he also provided substance to repudiate many of Palin's empty lines.
Yet at the end of the night, everyone was so concerned with one thing: Palin didn't fail. If by not failing they mean not stumbling as bad as she did in her previous interviews, then yes, she did not fail. But by any other reasonable standard, she bombed the debate. Did we learn anything substantial from that space underneath her perfectly-arranged coiffure, Tina Fey glasses, and small town smirk? No, we did not.
What infuriates me most (at the moment) is the way the GOP has handled its bid for the Oval Office. Several points I'd like to quickly throw out and address:
1. McCain, stop calling Palin and yourself "agents of change". No, to that assertion, I say FUCK YOU. This was a purely political move thrown out in an act of desperation to try to divert attention away from the fact that you've voted consistently with Bush's failed policies.
2. You both are also not "mavericks". McCain was a maverick, not is. He was a very respectable senator who set aside partisanship to push good reforms... until he decided to run for president. So stop it, it's really irritating to hear lies. The only lies I want to hear from the campaigns are their policy promises.
3. Republicans = small town Americana? Well, it is true many of their constituencies are from small towns in the South and the Midwest. But politicians in Washington playing to their small town cred? Please, spare me the humor. Your deals and connections with corporate businesses speak volumes about your "small town values", which is something that hasn't ever really been defined in a satisfactory manner. I've heard conservatives equate that phrase with morals, but that's just stupid. I'm not from a small town; does that make me immoral and a Sodomite? Not the last time I checked.
With that all said, I'm utterly sick of modern politics. It's still my favorite interest, but I fail to see much hope for a history of corruption, character assassinations, and illogical judgment.
Come November 4th, I'll be voting for the lesser of two evils.
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Labels: barack obama, joe biden, john mccain, sarah palin, vp debate
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Friday, September 19, 2008
One last night
Can't believe I'm moving in today... summer is gone already? I didn't do anything...
I ran 2 miles today. :)
Funniest question I've seen on Yahoo! Answers so far:
How do you make out with a guy?
Oh man, that was funny.
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Labels: running, summer is over, yahoo answers
Posted by Andrew at 2:25 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Back to running!
Missed running yesterday because I was too tired and had no time. Harvest Moon Festival and Terrabyte 3.0 were semi-interesting but not really worth the trouble I went to. Got a few good pictures though!
Tina Fey's impression of Sarah Palin was awesome. It's now dominating YouTube.
I ran 1.6 miles today! Happy day.
Why are my friends already moving in today?? It's crazy...what happened to summer?!
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Labels: harvest moon festival, running, snl, summer is over, tina fey, tired, youtube
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Saturday, September 13, 2008
Starting to get bored again
These last two weeks have settled into a somewhat mundane routine. Since having some consecutive sleepless nights after returning from Taiwan, I decided to revamp my living schedule. I avoid caffeine in the late afternoon and on (no boba...sadness), I restrict my internet usage from more pointless things (aka Word Challenge), and I've taken up jogging. The jogging has actually become quite enjoyable, as I've somehow tricked myself into thinking my day will not be complete without it. So far, I've managed to jog a mile each day (Google Maps is awesome). Today I managed to push myself a little further and got to about 1.2 miles; I was proud of myself but my ankles are not.
My family went out to dinner tonight and we ordered a dish of clams. At the bottom of the dish, we found a lonely, rather awkward rock. We asked the waiter about it and he said they must've not cleaned enough. That's kind of sad.
There's a really large fcking cricket outside my room. I keep thinking it's actually inside, in the dark corner where my computer cables are. I'm going to go insane if it doesn't shut up soon.
Newest addiction: Yahoo Answers. Going for Level 3.
Toodles.
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Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Of Mavericks, Lipstick, and Secret Muslims
Now that Election Day is mere months away, is anyone else besides me tired of everything?
Sometimes, I can be the biggest nerd imaginable. I mean, who else would read BBC when they're bored? What can I say, I love news and politics.
What's been on my mind lately is the language and media coverage. I've become so disillusioned by both parties this year. This campaign, like so many others, has abandoned all the issues and has become a political circus. All I hear about these days is mudslinging between the two campaigns, each one trying not to be the last one to be attacked. What happened to the issues? Your platforms? Your dignity? I realize the last one's a difficult request for politicians, but for Christ's sake, you're in the national spotlight!
I think the comedian Lewis Black put it best:
"In this country, there are two major political parties. The Democratic Party, a party of no ideas, and the Republican Party, a party of bad ideas."
It's so true. The Democratic Party, for all its talk of change, fails to outline how exactly they'll bring it about. Sure, it's some nice rhetoric to ring in our ears, but what about after that warm feeling leaves my body? I can get that same feeling from soiling myself. Prove to me you have a plan, a REAL, feasible plan to save this country's economy and reputation.
Now, as for the GOP, they're just horribly misguided at this point. I don't think I even want to talk about George W. Bush; too much for one post. Mostly, they're a party of really bad ideas; the last several years have clearly shown that. My liberal bias obviously plays into this, but I don't really care. Deregulating business? Hmm, our economy's in the crapper; I wonder what could've caused this. Global warming doesn't exist. Of course it doesn't, a myth can't drown the polar bears. Gay marriage, abortion, and gun control? Clearly, they are the demonic trifecta from Hell that is damaging our global reputation and weakening the resolve of our allies.
And then there's the hypocrisy. Senator John McCain, I used to admire you greatly. Back in 2005, you were the example every politician should have followed. Back then, you were indeed a maverick. You worked across party lines, stood against torture, and disagreed with the Dubya on his misguided policies. When you appeared on The Daily Show, I had hope in the GOP.
Ever since McCain began running for president, though, he's sacrificed everything he believed in. I realize that he had to pander to his own party and heal the wounds he inflicted as the maverick; so, he's a sycophant. But to then have the audacity to cite his previous actions as indication that he is the true agent of change, that's just pathetic. Only in Washington could such a flip-flopping attitude lasted this long.
His choice of running mate, Governor Sarah Palin, is anything but a good one. She is in every aspect a ticket booster, nothing more than a mere tool in his campaign machine. With President Bush's former campaign advisors on his staff, McCain clearly did not take great care in his decision. Who knows, maybe it wasn't his decision at all. To me, it seems more like the GOP's desperate attempt to exploit the fallout from Senator Hillary Clinton's primary campaign. Women will automatically flock to a woman candidate, right? It shows you how much credit the campaign advisors and McCain give to women's intelligence. Last time I checked, it took more than two X chromosomes to win women's votes.
And yet, there are constant reports about her campaign stops. Of women flocking to her, saying she's the woman for them. These same women who support gun control, universal health care, the right to choose, and education reform. Perhaps I've given America too much benefit of the doubt.
As for Palin's qualifications, I don't think there's any real debate about that. Anyone who's seen or heard about her resume knows she's not ready for any of this. As much as I am wary about Washington oldies, I'd trust Joe Biden as a stand-in for president if my life depended on it.
Now, as for media coverage, I think hypocrisy runs even deeper in its veins. For decades, conservatives have cried foul over what they saw as "liberal media bias". And, in their defense, I do perceive it in several news sources. But there really isn't such a thing as unbiased media. In fact, the conservatives have their own platform for trumping their beliefs, Fox News. It's one thing to be biased, but it's a whole different story when you're being just dishonest. Bill O'Reilly can hardly be called a beacon of partiality and truth. He is arrogant, he is ignorant, and he is just downright out of control. Fox News is clearly "conservative media bias" at its most grotesque. It rarely (if ever) criticizes Bush's administration, spreads pointless and false rumors about Obama's religion and patriotism, and spews its hypocritical views like it's everyone's opinion. You called the media unfair and sexist towards Palin? Where were you when Clinton was on the campaign trail? Oh that's right, you were in the same place. How ironic.
Can someone bring us back to the real issues, the real crises in this country? I hardly think an unconventional middle name and a lack of a flag pin are going to endanger national security. The media needs to grow up. Oh, and speaking of Obama's religion. First of all, who cares what Jeremiah Wright said? Does anyone honestly think Obama swallows every word that man has said. I'd put my bet on him being a bit brighter than a doorknob to know sound reason. Second, all this talk of Obama being a "secret Muslim". The real question here is: Who CARES if he was actually Muslim? I'd have hoped we had matured enough to move beyond that issue. Freedom of religion, wasn't it? I don't quite see Obama and bin Laden holding hands. One God, right?
Lipstick on a pig. Palin introduced it, Obama used it, McCain got antsy and released an ad that CBS had yanked off YouTube. The cycle of life, really.
So come this November, if I haven't gone crazy from the frenzy of attack ads, I'll go into the poll booths and ask myself, who's been lying the most to me this year?
Oh, and check these out:
LA Times on Palin
BBC on Lipstick
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Labels: barack obama, election 2008, fox news, john mccain, jon stewart, lipstick, mavericks, o'reilly, sarah palin, secret muslims
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Monday, September 8, 2008
Settling in and preparing to spring
These last few days passed without me really noticing. With the exception of Michelle driving all the way over here to visit me (which I am eternally grateful for), life has settled back into the same mindless drivel and web wandering of the last few months. I need to get out of the house with my camera and go shoot something.
I'm excited about this month. Apple and Canon are both making major announcements in the coming weeks, and I look forward to what each has to offer. I'm less excited about Apple personally, merely paying attention to how its market image will build/falter based on whatever revolutionary or evolutionary product(s) it will unveil on Tuesday. Canon, on the other hand, is making me very impatient. I've been waiting for them to answer Nikon's D3/D300/D700 for awhile now, and it looks as though--based on various teaser images on their international sites--rumors about a successor to the FF 5D are coming to fruition. I would heavily consider purchasing a FF dSLR if it had faster shooting and better AF. I'm really glad I decided to buy the 30D instead of the 40D back in June. I can't believe Canon actually released the 50D to succeed the 40D, which isn't even a year old yet. Now I've got a better, faster SLR than my previous 350D which is not expensive enough for me to dismiss purchasing a full frame SLR in fear of losing too much money.
I need to be more decisive; I keep missing opportunities because I hesitate out of insecurity or laziness. Of course, I've been saying this for awhile, but hopefully I can set myself straight before the new quarter begins.
Job search begins Monday! Also, I must e-mail my professors about the textbooks during fall; I don't feel like spending several hundred dollars on barely-updated newer editions I'll only touch for 3 months.
I was reading a photoblog and came upon this simple but effective technique for making better pictures:
From Jeff Masamori's blog:
"For all you aspiring photographers looking to get better, I suggest you this:
Get your camera, go out, and find something interesting. Then think to yourself "You know, any idiot with a camera can take of picture of this thing in front of me, so what can I do to make it special?" Play with composition, aperture, exposure, etc. Get on the ground, or climb on top of something. Be adventurous and you are bound to get something great."
Definitely something that's passed through my head, although he puts it in more bluntly than I normally do. It's that bluntness that makes the difference between the quality of our images though, so perhaps I should adopt more of his attitude.
Disclaimer: The following section will probably only be fully understood/appreciated by a fellow SLR shooter who cares about my slow weaning off amateurish skills/habits.
I'm much more satisfied with my pictures from Taiwan than those from Hawaii. There really is a gradual learning curve for myself. Last year, when I first got my dSLR, I was shackled to the P(rogram) setting, which allowed the camera to decide the best aperture and shutter speed for you--not much better than using the Auto function. Thankfully, I had a really sharp prime lens attached, so even this amateurism leaked through a few portfolio keepers.
Reflecting on my shooting this year, I trace my progress through my various shoots. Ever since I joined The Daily Bruin, I shot only in Manual mode. It was so difficult to adjust to in the beginning, since I didn't fully comprehend the differences in results or how to perfect exposure. But by the summer, I was dialing a slightly smaller aperture to get more of Amy in focus, finding better shutter speeds to catch diffused window light, or realizing the full potential of angling reflected external flash bursts off various surfaces to evenly light Daisy.
I am most proud, however, of my growth in Taiwan. I finally acquired a wide-angle, so I was able to play around with perspective distortion and create different shots from just tilting my camera a few inches from the usual straight-on position. I realized leaving my aperture constant was a poor idea; landscapes came out significantly sharper when I remembered to dial my aperture smaller. Most importantly, I no longer shackled myself to low ISOs. Because I'm a freak about image quality, I regard digital noise to be my greatest peeve after image blur. For too long I kept myself at ISO 100, hoping that if I took multiple, consecutive shots of one image, one would come out the way I wanted. I realized two things: first, that rarely got me the image, and only in good lighting; and second, the 30D's CMOS sensor gave me almost unnoticeable noise at ISO 400, and even ISO 800 yielded clean results. I guess it reminded me of my focus: I'm in it to capture the image I want, not to make a poster-size print. I'd much rather have the perfect shot.
-- end photography self-reflection of growth --
I really want sushi and ramen.
I really want Federer to win today.
I really want to shoot more sporting events. UCLA Fall '08 here I come!
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Labels: finding purpose, photography, self-growth
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Saturday, September 6, 2008
Insomnia and Jetlag
I can't believe I'm still awake. I'm not even in school yet!
I guess I'll recap Taiwan now.
Day 1
- flight back was way too long
- There was a couple behind us in the check-in line; apparently, they were from UCLA. It got annoying when the girl kept whining and getting very touchy with her boyfriend. I wanted to wallop her with my camera.
- barely missed arriving at the same time as Taiwan's ex-president's son, and thus all the media teams in Taiwan
- a dozen mosquito bites in an hour
- old American pop music playing everywhere. I heard "Toxic" at least 3 times in an hour.
Day 2
- watched the DNC live on CNN (thank goodness for English channels on cable)
- SoGo department stores are freakin huge
- got new glasses... they're interesting. I don't recognize myself.
- all the girls here have dyed, permed hair with long, straight bangs = do not like
- cute Taiwanese soap opera actress :]
Day 3
- Taiwanese food market, crazy food violations but fresh food
- bought a ping-pong paddle!
- Taiwan has some really funny tv shows
Day 4
- family lunch
- Maokong outing
Day 5
- Chiang-Kai Shek Memorial Hall; saw Joan there!
- Ximending
- shaved ice <3
- Longshan Temple
- saw 3 dildo shops in one block
Day 6
- went to the countryside
- more mosquito bites
- really cool but really expensive metal figurines
Day 7
- Taipei 101
- eslite Bookstore
- Sun Yat-sen Memorial Hall
- really expensive, really good dinner at Pizzapub; got sick from eating too much
Day 8
- Taichung
- awesome Japanese restaurant
Day 9
- shopping
- family dinner
Day 10
- Danshui
Day 11
- last-minute trip to 228 Peace Park and NOVA
- flight back was better; somehow managed to distract myself with two newspapers and The Economist for 6 hours
Labels: insomnia post, jetlag, taiwan
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Saturday, August 23, 2008
A Brief Blogging Hiatus
Gonna be in Taiwan for ten days, so it'll be unlikely for me to find a computer with internet for prolonged use. I'll try though :) if anyone wants anything from Taiwan (Taipei), let me know!
Note to self: end rambling and confusing logic, just get to the point.
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Labels: hiatus, taiwan, vacation
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Friday, August 22, 2008
Clearing Up
Got two filters in the mail today. :) A new multi-coated B+W one for my portrait lens, and a multi-coated Hoya for my Tamron. Uber happy with (finally) having high quality filters on my lenses.
Bought a Firewire 6 pin-6 pin (Firewire 400) cord today, so I could transfer files between Macs directly. It was only $14, a lot cheaper than I expected.
Spent about 4 hours at Derrick's house doing files backups/deletions and basking in the glory of his new VW GLI. Gotta love this awesome guy. :)
It still doesn't feel like I'm leaving the country in two days. My brain must really be shut off.
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Labels: apple store, firewire, lens filters, VW GLI
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Thursday, August 21, 2008
Twenty-four
My 24th post! :)
Things have been looking up a bit. I've had to run around town getting diagnostics for my laptop and buying supplies for backup, but it's been okay. I'm glad it'll be resolved before I get back from vacation.
These next few days are gonna be hectic. So many people, so little time! I need a planner, but I can't seem to find one in my room.
I was cleaning out my old PC last night and came upon some old AIM logs that I hadn't found before. They really brought back memories, mostly bad ones. The immaturity in all of them just made me cringe. Hopefully in a few years, I can look back to these days and not feel as much disgust and regret.
I really want to go to Guppy's once this summer. Anyone want to go with me?
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Labels: 24th post, looking up, old AIM logs
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Monday, August 18, 2008
Karma
I knew last week wouldn't go unpunished. Never happened, never will.
Ugh.
So far, I've burned my taste buds on hot chocolate and made myself unable to savor any real flavors.
Second, my laptop's LCD stopped working today. The logic board quit on it, I guess. Bringing it in on Wednesday to a technician... This, of course, happens two months after warranty expired.
And it's only Monday.
Even better, when I tell my dad about it, instead of being helpful, he blames the problem on me. When I insist I didn't do anything, since this is a problem reported by a few others online, he badmouths Apple in its entirety. Thanks dad, real useful.
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Labels: karma
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Sunday, August 17, 2008
Dang, Michael Phelps is Superman. 'nuff said.
I've had a very strong urge to play tennis in the last few days. I don't even play tennis-well, haven't in about 6 years-but I still want to hit a few fuzzy balls around.
Goal for Sunday:
Tennis?
Make chocolate-chip cookies
Install/learn Ubuntu Linux
Civic argument
Getting letters really make my day, I hope I can keep correspondences up at a decent pace.
Last thought: need to hang out with people next week! Perhaps some sushi too... and shaved ice.
P.S. Sex and the City gave me shivers. And I only watched five minutes of a syndicated episode too.
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Labels: goals, michael phelps, superman, tennis
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Friday, August 15, 2008
A great day again
My mom took the Camry into the shop today, so we got a Yaris for a rental car for the day. I felt so small driving that car, almost as if I was handling a toy.
Some minor confusion in the morning when my mom mixed up my optometrist and dentist appointments, but all went well. No increase in degree! :)
I spent the afternoon with Derrick again, this time visiting various car dealers in the area and trying to find the car of his (teenage) dreams. Some of the salespeople we met were really interesting, especially the VW guy who told us in a thick Russian accent, "Fuck the Jetta! Fuck the GLI! GTI is for you." When Derrick put the GTI in S(port) mode, that engine roar and powerful acceleration totally blew us away. Definitely a keeper. ;)
As it turned out, my stalker used my address to send me a letter; it's so nice to read these handwritten thoughts. I'll reply once I remember how to write again.
It's also great to talk on the phone with special friends, especially when boredom has kept you from dialing yourself for months. It was great talking to you again. :)
I just spent about $50 on lens filters. I hope it was worth it.
Tomorrow's a new day! I wonder what I'll get myself into...
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Labels: close friends, gti, keeping in touch, volkswagen
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Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Time to get organized
I just realized today that I only have a few weeks left of summer. There's still so much I wanted to accomplish that I was just too lazy to do! Or my ADD keeps me from being able to focus on one thing at a time. I guess I've got to stop trying to juggle so many things in my mind at once; not terribly great at multi-tasking. Perhaps it's time to invest in a planner...
Monday was fantastic; it made the rest of the week so much better.
Tuesday went off without a hitch, finally spending some quality time with Mr. Derrick Hong and surprising Lauren at Coldstone's. :) AND I got some really nice sunset pictures before I returned the lens.
Today was average, the humidity discouraged me from going out in the afternoon. The weather was great in the morning though, and I had a comfortable evening walk before dinner. I started reading Nelson Mandela's autobiography, so hopefully I'll spend less time on the computer and more time being productive.
Since it's August, all my biannual and annual medical checkups have come up. An optometrist appointment tomorrow and a dentist visit on Friday; both in the morning too. At least I'll wake up in the mornings this week.
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Labels: appointments, good week
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Isn't it funny?
You used to talk to someone everyday. Whether it was in person at school, or on the phone at the most random times, or a simple IM conversation, it happened. And somehow, this continues on for two years.
And then suddenly, you start feeling a little distant. Naturally, the physical distance can take some of the blame. You think, it's no big deal. You handled this for an entire year, how is this any different?
But then you realize, you have nothing to do at home. During that year, when it all worked out, you were busy with schoolwork and new friends; you had plenty of distractions to keep your mind off these barriers and easy conversation topics to bring up.
At times, you feel under-appreciated. You feel neglected by and distanced from another life you were once so deeply connected to. You know it's not intentional. You know it's mostly just you. After all, you're the misguided one who has misplaced his own feelings onto an unfortunate friend. You are tempted to discuss this further with your friend, knowing this issue is keeping you from really caring about him/her.
But part of you hesitates. That part has seen how much of you still exists in his/her life, how much he/she has surrounded himself/herself with objects directly related to you. You stop and realize: you were crazy to think all of that. So you push it away, being wiser than before.
The issue never really settles, however. You know its roots, you force the guilt upon yourself, yet part of you can't seem to shake it. It haunts you. It keeps you from keeping in touch with him/her properly. And for the first time, you're not being the best friend you can be. You have failed your own promise, your written promise that was meant to last for decades.
And all of this hits you, after you have had the first wholly-good day you have had in months. As you sit at your computer in the early morning, contemplating and writing your thoughts down. The feelings sink deep.
You finish writing and publish your thoughts. Your worries and musings, at the mercy of the world's eyes. You leave your dark room, put on a jacket, and walk outside. You stare up into the night sky and search for shooting stars.
The question is, what do you wish for?
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Labels: musings, shooting stars
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Life Surprises Me
I just had... an amazing day. Almost perfect. Thanks. :)
Mondays are a bit redeemed.
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Labels: amazing day, mondays
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Sunday, August 10, 2008
Random adventures and the search for a wide-angle lens
Lately, spontaneity has been good to me. Like a friend asking me to get froyo on a boring Friday afternoon, and ending up grocery shopping for her cooking urges. The trip made me feel like a husband, but it was definitely interesting. Which reminds me, I haven't made my chocolate chip cookies yet...
Or a random call on Saturday to shoot Countrywide again, this time with Andy Roddick in semi-finals! I really wish I had a 70-200mm f/2.8 of my own; the office's D2H has only 4MP, so there was so much noise in my shots at high ISOs. :( Sadness. But Safin and Roddick!
I've been looking for a sharp, fast wide-angle lens for future work. I really wish I had the money for a full frame camera and not have to struggle with all the third-party APS-C lenses. They're all good in their own respects, but no all-around good ones. And the issue of money still remains...
Anyway, I found out I'm going to Taiwan at the end of the month for about a week. I guess I'm pretty excited to be going somewhere this summer, and I want to see how Taipei & Taichung have changed since I visited in junior year. Looking forward to photographic adventures, cheap food, and nightlife. :)
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Labels: cooking, countrywide classic, taiwan, wide-angle lens
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Saturday, August 9, 2008
So much for daily writing
The Olympic Opening Ceremony was freakin awesome! The countdown and drums at the beginning were my favorite part. The torch lighting was pretty cool too, although my favorite is still Barcelona 1992.
Labels: barcelona 1992, beijing 2008, drums, olympics, torch lighting
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Thursday, August 7, 2008
Amazing
Mitch Albom always seems to know how to wrench my heart. He truly understands how to harness the most common and often underappreciated feelings inside us and touch our hearts. Suffering. Loss. Nostalgia. Forgiveness. Redemption.
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Labels: for one more day, hope, mitch albom, redemption
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The Headache Continues
Maybe I didn't sleep enough... staying in my room for long periods of time probably isn't helping either.
I started reading Mitch Albom's For One More Day in an effort to fulfill my reading desires. It's kind of the emotional and contemplative book I expected from him, and it's very similar to his first two novels. I'll finish it first and then form a definite opinion.
I finally got out of the house today and had dinner with Jeremy and Osborne. It was great just hanging with the guys, talking about inappropriate things in a family restaurant; we did get to some more serious topics too, though. It's interesting to discuss our opinions about relationships and whatnot. We then met up with Daisy and Ian and went off on the funniest conversations. It's good being with old friends again.
I really need to get into my search for my next car. At this rate, I won't get one before I go back to school. Gotta find that Civic!
I'm going biking with Vicky tomorrow, so I'm pretty excited about seeing her and getting back to biking.
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Labels: biking, hanging out, old friends
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Wednesday, August 6, 2008
As My Head Roughly Throbs
John Lennon's "Imagine" has been in my head these days. It's not terribly complicated in any way, but it's so beautiful in every respect despite it. It's so much more powerful and honest than anything I've heard before. Lennon was truly a blessed visionary. It's such disgraceful irony for humankind that all the greatest people championing peace and love are the ones assassinated. Martin Luther King Jr., Robert F. Kennedy, Gandhi, John Lennon. We're such a complicated and confusing race.
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After such an awesome day on Monday, Tuesday had to be dull to balance it out. It was pretty much back to the same old routine, although I did have In-N-Out for lunch. :)
Much to my excitement, I realized my credit card balance for July was $8.03! Now I know this figure doesn't include my cash purchases, but still... this is the lowest it's ever been. I'm proud of my self-control and halt to frivolous internet purchases.
My father talked to me for about an hour last night. It was one of those talks about my future and career, and it didn't go quite the direction I expected. He was actually very supportive of me; he didn't want me to give up on pre-med just because of a few bad grades. The entire time, however, he kept reminding me that he was not pushing me to pre-med. My grandfather never pushed him to be a doctor, and he wouldn't do it either. He didn't care what I ended up doing, as long as it made me happy. Despite being compartmentalized in his college at Taiwan, where he had no choice but to study engineering, he ended up being lucky enough to find something in it that made him happy. As unglamorous as it sometimes sounded, he loved being a contractor, going from place to place (never an indoor person) and watching his knowledge build homes. Every job will have its challenges and eventual routine, he said, but if you can come home satisfied at the end of the day, that's all that mattered.
I'm pretty lucky, having parents that don't try to direct my life entirely. Sure, my mom will try to push me in certain more financially-sound directions, but she's just being her motherly self. I sometimes think that this perception--this need for financial security and a higher standard of living perpetuated by this bloated capitalist ideology we've all adopted--has severely blinded me. I can't properly clear my mind and freely think about what I really want to do with myself.
I was browsing a professional photography agency's website today and I was completely blown away. They only had six photographers in their roster, but collectively they've covered almost every celebrity, advertisement, movie poster, and fashion shoot I've seen in recent years. Every one of them had their own client list, their own styles of shooting; all of their photos made me do a double take. In those moments, I started wondering: is this what my dad was talking about? This feeling of excitement and belonging?
I'm not sure yet. I've always considered photography to be merely a hobby, and a very expensive one at that. I didn't believe I had the artistic vision/photographic eye to do any more than enthusiast work; plus, there was always the financial issue to consider. But I don't know... I guess I still have to investigate further. Same with business finance, same with law, even same with medicine. I just don't know yet.
I do know I will work hard to figure out my life. It's scary; the moment you become an adult, you have to constantly look to the future. Not just to the next midterm, or the next quarter, but years and years beyond. It's frightening and very intimidating. But now, it's also a bit exciting. I'll play it out and see where it takes me. :)
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Labels: careers, college, finding self, imagine, john lennon, looking ahead, photography
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Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Imagine.
Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one.
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Labels: imagine, john lennon
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Countrywide Classic!
Shooting the Countrywide Classic was awesome! I'd never driven to UCLA by myself before, so that in itself was an experience. Can't believe traffic stopped before I even got to the 405...
I sat on the court sidelines in the best seats in the house, right at the net. Combining my two of my favorites, tennis and a camera, made me feel at home. Plus, I got to talk to the few photographers that showed up to shoot. Since it was the first day, almost nobody showed up. Got some great pictures though (I think)! I really learned the crucial aspect of timing in sports shooting today; anticipating the action really got me much better shots. Can't wait to shoot more in the year!
MARAT SAFIN :D I was THIS close to him!
Okay. Haha. I'm good for awhile.
Weird discovery last night: my copy of "Apologize" was 1.67 GB??!
Currently listening to: "Typical" by Mute Math
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Labels: anticipation, apologize, countrywide classic, marat safin
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Monday, August 4, 2008
Wow
It's been an interesting day. Well, sort of. I was really surprised when I got an e-mail Sunday morning telling me I was shooting the Countrywide Classic on Monday. Really, really last minute surprise, but I can't wait for it! Hope I get some decent pictures from it.
I was really surprised Andy Murray won today; the Cincinnati Masters was really full of surprises. My jaw mysteriously started hurting, and now I can't properly eat. Ugh. And while running today, I guess the heat and how much I pushed myself led to a pounding chest pain that wouldn't go away for an hour. I've really got to know my limits.
Hope my first drive to UCLA alone goes well! And maybe see a few friends? We'll see. :)
Random store I saw today. Somehow the context of it all just doesn't seem right. Oh, and there were grown adults in the plaza parking lot racing remote control cars. Really odd.
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Sunday, August 3, 2008
The Halfway Point
My summer's already half over, and I haven't done anything worthwhile. Most of my friends are in or headed to different places of the globe, and I'm stuck here at home. When Christine told me to go and do something that I really wanted to do, I didn't really know what I wanted either. I've been floating around in this endless void of unemployment and no school for so long that I've lost focus on my life.
For now, a list of things that must be done in the remaining time:
- Find and purchase a used car to replace the old Camry
- Get a gym membership (finally)
- Go biking with Vicky regularly
- Read at least 3 new books
- Buy a wide-angle and a telephoto zoom lens
- Sushi with Angie in Little Tokyo (mochi ice cream/Yogurtland as well)
- Find a job for the year
- Collect debts from people
- Birthday gifts
- ?
Recent music appreciation:
"Hotel California" - The Eagles
"Rock You Like A Hurricane" - Scorpions
"Helter Skelter" - The Beatles
"With A Little Help From My Friends" - The Beatles
"Pinball Wizard" - The Who
"Smells Like Teen Spirit" - Nirvana
"Live And Let Die" - Paul McCartney & Wings (and the Guns 'N Roses cover)
"I'll Run" - The Cab
"Rocketman" - Elton John
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Labels: appreciation, beatles, eagles, finding oneself, lost, oldies, scorpions, yogurtland
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Friday, August 1, 2008
Pleasant Discoveries
Finally! Got out of the house this week and went on a random trip to Little Tokyo with Angie. Hurray for random outings. :) We passed through a bunch of Japanese stores with the cutest and most amazing food items; I took a picture of some fruit tarts:
Adorable, no?
As we were walking to Little Tokyo Shopping Center (which wasn't interesting at all), we found a Yogurtland! Totally made my day :) Now I don't have to go down to UCI to get some really good froyo.
I vow to return downtown when I have a wide-angle lens; a telephoto doesn't do it justice.
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Labels: froyo, fruit tart, little tokyo, yogurtland
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Beatlemania
I'm going through another one of my music taste shifts. While I generally like alternative/rock, I've had periods of slight shifts. I've had a hip-hop/R&B phase, a musical phase, and an acoustic guitar phase; I'm currently entering my appreciation for the classics. In the last few weeks, I've downloaded The Who, Led Zeppelin, U2, Queen, Guns 'N Roses, and The Beach Boys. I'm tracing back to Rolling Stone's list of most influential artists of all time, so I have a while to go. The Beatles are my favorite! Not all of their songs are really to my taste, but some of them totally rocked their Across the Universe counterparts.
My current favorite songs:
Helter Skelter
Back in the U.S.S.R.
With A Little Help From My Friends
All You Need Is Love
Let It Be
Hey Jude
Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Band
Forgive me if I start singing Beatles lyrics randomly.
I GOT BLISTERS ON MY FINGERS.
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Labels: beatles, helter skelter, music
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Thursday, July 31, 2008
Insomnia (the first of many such entries)
Labels: insomnia post, model, portrait, shoot
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Cheesecake and Homegrown Cynicism
So yesterday was $1.50 Cheesecake Day at The Cheesecake Factory, celebrating their 30th anniversary, I believe. First time ever at the restaurant (normal price of $7/slice turned me off) and it was absolutely delicious. The entrees were not memorable; I would've been better off at CPK. The cheesecake, however, made up for the uninspiring meal.
I ordered the Kahlua Cocoa Coffee Cheesecake--so good! Tasted like tiramisu, which is definitely great :) Still have some left in the fridge =d
During lunch, my mom suddenly brought up the topic of marriage and began listing traits my future wife could not have. Among the several she mentioned, she said I shouldn't marry a non-Chinese Asian, African-American, or Hispanic woman; I forgot what she said about white girls. Not many choices, huh? Reminds me of what Shirley's parents told her about her future boyfriend. Quite traditional-minded, even in this day and age...
The second bit of life wisdom my mom imparted to me was to never trust salespeople. All this talk about how they suggest you put the car through unneeded maintenance and don't give a rat's ass about you if there's no commission incentive involved. I realize that a lot of what she says is true; we're all a little too capitalistic for our own good. But it's kind of disturbing that she pushes such distrust as the appropriate way of life. I guess you have to be a little cynical in life to get by.
In other news, the Nikon D700 was released yesterday. Nikon continues to tempt me with their almost-perfect marvels... Canon, when are you going to come out and trump them again??
Oh, and John McCain should be ashamed of himself for running an ad that attempts (read: fails) to equate Barack Obama with Britney Spears and Paris Hilton. I think someone's getting a little desperate now, don't you think?
Take a look for yourself.
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Labels: celebrity ad, cheesecake, cynicism, d700, kahlua, mccain, nikon, obama, tiramisu, traditional
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Tuesday, July 29, 2008
This Again, But Not Quite
When Melody left for St. Louis last year at the end of June, I thought I was seeing her for the last time. I wondered back then if I would react "appropriately" to her departure. After all, we'd known each other for so long. How are you supposed to react when someone you've known since seventh grade leaves without a guarantee of return? Was I supposed to break down? Perhaps a part of me dies a little?
We'd been through a lot, to say the least. I went from being an awkward, chubby seventh grader who reveled in her angelic aura (her paleness and seeming perfection helped to perpetuate that image in my mind) to a somewhat less awkward, more mischievous college kid who teased her effortlessly. The seven years I've known her have brought her down from her pedestal in my mind, but the more human Melody is the one I've come to cherish. Sure, we still have our awkward moments--what good friendship doesn't?--but she'll be one I turn to for honest advice or unsolicited teasing.
While Christine, Jessica, Melody, and I were in Irvine, we suddenly began discussing the future. Not just the next few years in college--I mean fifteen years to marriage and children. The thought of all the pressures still to come kind of freaked us out, but one thing stuck: we'd always be with each other. I guess it's like my dad said: many of my college friends will be future business associates and social companions, but the high school ones are the ones for life. We've become our own little posse, hanging out together each summer many times. It's good to be a part of something... indescribable.
Melody's departure last summer was heart-dropping. I couldn't quite muster the sentimentality I felt the moment deserved; it didn't feel like goodbye. All the girls there were lightly crying, and I figured it was another one of those accursed masculinity moments, when someone decided that society could not accept the image of weakness in a man's tears. So at that moment, I didn't feel anything. A little sadness, but mostly numbness.
Getting back into my car, I sat motionless behind the wheel. Snow Patrol's "Run" drifted out of the speakers, and everything slowly sank in at once. At that moment, with my best friend sitting shotgun, I sniffed once. Two small tears crawled down my face and fell on my jeans.
This time, watching her walk into the fray at the terminal, I didn't feel as strongly. I thought about it afterward, and it wasn't because I would miss her any less than before. She had come back once, and I know she'll be back again; if not the next summer, then the next. I can't wait for what adventures we'll embark on then.
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Monday, July 28, 2008
Sushi!
Oh man, I had almost forgotten how much I loved sushi! There was a time, back in June, when I had sushi every week (or more) because of friends visiting. I developed a distinct fondness of salmon, and I had to order at least 4 pieces of salmon sushi each time I went.
I went last night because my friend was going back to St. Louis in a few days. We had to get her some good, decently-priced sushi before she went back. We ate at our favorite place, Gin Sushi, and ordered some of the best dishes I've had in awhile. My Omega-3 roll consisted of California rolls topped with salmon and unagi--so delicious! And of course, I had to order salmon! Best meal this month, hands down. I also got to sample my friends' food (hehe): Samurai Roll (which had shrimp tempura and a strange teriyaki/Thousand Island??/spicy sauce), Philadelphia Roll (Salmon with cream cheese, surprisingly good), and Cherry Blossom Roll (Spicy tuna & avocado wrapped in salmon!). And for dessert, we ordered two tempura green tea ice cream dishes, an awesome finish for the meal. :)
I'll post more pictures from the photoshoot tomorrow. I repaired my broken sideview mirror, so now I have a car again! Freedom :)
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Labels: green tea, ice cream, salmon, spicy tuna, sushi, tempura
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Saturday, July 26, 2008
Spontaneous Outings
I woke up this morning to the sound of my doorbell ringing. For some reason, I thought I heard an unfamiliar voice speaking, so I figured it was a soliciting salesman and ignored it. The second time, however, came with my friend yelling my name. I half-stumbled, half-wobbled over to the door and blinded myself with the noon sun. It seemed that our original plans for the afternoon had fallen through at 10 AM and their attempts to call me had never gotten through. Apparently, I am the only person they know who turns off his cell phone when he goes to bed. Anyway, our beach plans were scrapped and we spent the afternoon at In-N-Out and Yogurtland.
People are also rather unpredictably stupid. There was horrendous traffic on the 405 freeway, not because of an accident, but because there was some trash lying between two lanes. Did everyone have to slow down and look?!?
On a lighter note, I finished sorting through my photoshoot from yesterday. Apparently, I'm still an idiot with checking optimum exposure. My camera shake totally ruined some of my best shots... and I failed to take advantage of higher ISO's ability to use faster shutter speeds. Someday I'll learn...
Here's a couple of shots from the shoot I liked: (More to come)
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Labels: photography, portrait, spontaneous, yogurtland
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Starting Over
I never really got into this blogging thing. I have numerous accounts with LiveJournal, Blogger, and Wordpress, but I didn't make much use out of any of them. I suppose now would be as good of a time as any to apply myself for the first time...
Hello, brave new world.
My username is rather straightforward: it brings out two things I take close to heart. I'm a proud soon-to-be-second-year at UCLA, and I haven't a clue about what I'm studying anymore. Pre-med studies just didn't quite strike my fancy, you know? We'll see how things go.
And Canon... is just my brand loyalty. I've only owned Canon cameras in my lifetime, and it might just be my bias speaking, but I believe Canon delivers the best pictures. My 30D has given me some amazing results, and I hope I'll be adding to my lens & studio equipment collections over the new few years.
So I think I'll define the purpose of this blog, just to help me focus. I'll use this for two reasons: cathartic/writing splurges and photography. Simple enough, and hopefully I'll commit myself this time around.
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I had a great photoshoot with a close friend of mine today. It's the second time Amy's obliged, and I'm really grateful she has so much patience with me to do these things; I am truly blessed. :) I've never been really good at manifesting my ideas, and I'm lucky to be working with someone who knows what to do with posing.
My last shoot with Amy made her seem too... cutesy. Not that it's a bad thing; I had some amazing portfolio shots from that day. But ever since I totally lost focus on another friend's photos for a Xanga contest (which was themed "Hot Asian girls"), I've been wanting to let go of my personal, conservative (ugh) inhibitions. This time, I told myself exactly what I wanted to accomplish: to portray Amy as a woman rather than a girl. In part, I think I succeeded. We'll see once I finish sorting through all of my pictures.
And as a rather embarrassing side note, I completely butchered "Apologize" on the cello at the church talent show night.
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(I learned at The Daily Bruin that journalists used to end their pieces with "30" as a tradition; I decided to use my favorite number instead. =] )
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