"This is the beginning of a beautiful friendship."

I suppose it was only natural to have some doubts before. I'm so much more used to approaching a friendship and judging its closeness on a certain scale; I almost forgot how to see otherwise. But I think another milestone of my life has been reached, where unexplainable feelings are questioned and examined, but not shunned; rather, embracing them with the patience and understanding necessary gives birth to something wholly new and surprisingly immersive.

Almost two months ago, I had to stop and reexamine myself. Keeping within my comfort zone made me doubt venturing into something less certain and more unpredictable--the collision kept me up. But in the end, after countless mind turnings and friendly advice, I kept in line with my goal for this year: breaking out of my norm. It was a bit terrifying. I knew beforehand why I had made such a decision, and I wondered if I had been too optimistic--perhaps I believed too much in myself.

For the longest time, I didn't see what I wanted to see. I occasionally had my disappointments, but I never regretted my decision. And surprisingly, despite my usually doubtful nature, I never believed I had been overly optimistic. Little by little, I was convinced, we could find a little more.

Perhaps the best moment of my winter break happened at the very beginning. Somehow, it was so much easier. So much more open. So much less uncertain. I knew that all my concerns could be forgotten.

I love you, Big.

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